When going to the gym is not an option

It has been a long 4 weeks since my fall at the gym and I still have not recovered. I should write a disclaimer paragraph that this is not my usual post. It is hard to feel upbeat when you can barely walk let alone clean your house. My poor son has been stuck inside our home (for fear that if I take him to the park he will run off and I won't be able to catch him). 

On a positive note I have been able to have lots of down time and enjoy being home and praying. I enjoy praying for others and reflecting on the many attributes of God. I know God has a reason for everything and I am learning to listen to my body and I am not able to bounce back as quickly as I thought. 

After much prayer I broke down and tried to schedule an appointment with an orthopedic specialist. My first thought was to call my previous specialist and I found out he is out of the office and nobody knows when and if he will be back. Grrrr!!! Second thought call the urgent care that I went to and ask the attending physician to refer me to a specialist. He denied that. Double grrrr!!! He said that I needed to see my primary doctor and everyone knows that you can't see a primary doctor for a few weeks out. I was running out of options and time is of the essence. I need to get back to the gym and live a normal life. Going to the grocery store and after 30 minutes I am exhausted from walking. And using crutches is not an option for me. So I had to find a doctor that would authorize me to see a specialist. Finally I found a hoop to leap through. I saw the nurse practitioner and she referred me to a specialist and requested for me to get an MRI. I am happy now that I will get some answers because I cannot live like this for much longer. I bottom line is listen to your body know what is best and seek God for answers. He will direct you!! 

Pink & Black Spring Tea

I took a short sabbatical from putting together a table at the Spring Tea at my church. For the past two year I took a break from many creative activities. This year I was ready and even though I have been "resting" and "recuperating" from my sprained ankle I was not stressed. There are two things my hubby does not like when I put together a table: 1. I would be VERY stressed out and 2. I would spend quite a bit. This year I vowed to not fret and not spend tons. 

I found the cute plates from Hobby Lobby on clearance (score)! I bought them over a year ago and I was waiting precisely for a fun girlie table. My mom and sisters kindly helped me on Friday to decorate and take care of K. In less than two hours we were done! The final product was wait beautiful and the ladies enjoyed the tea very much! I am already thinking for next year. More ladies want to come so that can only mean one thing, I need to decorate two tables! Please don't tell my hubby! 

From a Mother's Heart

I am very blessed to have a healthy, handsome, and very active two year old boy. I love him beyond words and he brings so much joy. In the past few weeks my mind has began to wander. What if....

*We got pregnant again

*We have a little girl

*We adopted

These thoughts come into my mind daily and not quite sure why I have been contemplating them so much. Matt has not brought up any of these "what if" scenarios. I don't want to press any one of them because I am waiting for God to speak to both of us. It took us nearly a year to get pregnant with Kaden and then another what if came to mind "what if the second time is much harder." I did not want to think about that but my heart ached simply thinking about it. 

 Last week I came across an adorable Juicy Couture crib blanket for a little girl, I swooned, and I cried!!! Yes I cried. It was not tears of happiness. Matt reminded me by saying "WE HAVE A BOY!" I cried even more there at the store and the poor sales associate looked at me strangely. She might not have seen a grown woman break down and cry in front of her. Needless to say I did not make that purchase 

I am a mom that would love to have the joy of having a son and a daughter. But, the thought of having two boys and yet no daughter I cry at that thought. So now you know that I have been crying quite a bit and yes I sound selfish and I'm trying to control my future but you can't help but wonder. I will remind myself of how blessed I am and it gives me hope that no matter what my blessings surpass any of my current "what if"!